ic contact for tlv

[friendsfordinner]

[ it literally is just the generic ic contact post, Hickey hasn't changed the outgoing message yet or anything. ]

Comments

audio; a few days post-port

[tucky]

Hey, um-- I don't know if anybody's told you about breaches yet, or what going overboard means in ports, but I'm sorry I was chasing you and trying to hurt you; I wasn't in my right mind. You come out of that okay?

audio

[friendsfordinner]

Came out of it as okay as anyone else. I ended up in the same boat as you in the end—tried to hurt someone I liked.

audio

[tucky]

Shit, I'm sorry. They get away, or--?

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[friendsfordinner]

I didn't kill them if that's what you're asking. And I didn't die if that's what you're asking.

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[tucky]

I think I was kind of asking both.

Next month might be easier, but it might not be, too.

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[friendsfordinner]

Easier or not, at least I'm aware of what sort of bullshit I might face.

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[tucky]

You won't know what it's gonna look like until it starts, though.

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[friendsfordinner]

But I know the extent of what might happen. Now I know that there's always a chance I'll go bloody feral and attack someone else on the ship. I can plan for that no matter what happens.

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[tucky]

And this ain't the first time that's happened. For the record.

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[friendsfordinner]

Really?

[ There's a moment's pause. ]

Damn. When did it happen before?

audio

[tucky]

There were emotion parasites once, but it was a long time ago. And just, like, in general-- all kinds of shit happens in breaches.

Re: audio

[friendsfordinner]

You're going to have to explain to a man what you mean by emotion parasites. Were those parasites emotional or did they mess with one's emotions?

audio

[tucky]

The second one.

Actually, it might've been both.

But they infected people, and messed with their heads in different ways. Some people were made angry and violent because of it.

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[friendsfordinner]

And angry and violent people gave us a repeat of what we just suffered.

[ There's a pause on Hickey's end. ]

Makes you wonder how these things tie into the idea of 'redemption,' doesn't it.

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[tucky]

I try not to give a shit what the Admiral thinks or wants.

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[friendsfordinner]

But aren't you working for him? One would think you'd at least give a small shit about what's going through the boss's head.

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[tucky]

Yeah, I'm here by choice and I can leave if I want, but that doesn't mean I think of him as my boss.

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[friendsfordinner]

Then how do you think of him?

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[tucky]

It's complicated. I don't know if I can think of a term for it. He's just... the Admiral.

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[friendsfordinner]

You might need to think of a term for it then. At least, before someone makes that decision for you.

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[tucky]

They already have. You did, right?

Just because I don't think of him as my boss doesn't mean I don't get the comparison.

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[friendsfordinner]

I know. But sometime you might have to end up picking sides and deciding just how much faith and trust you put in authority.

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[tucky]

Not much. When I pick sides, it's definitely not his I pick.

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[friendsfordinner]

Now that is good to hear. I hope it stays true.

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[tucky]

I hope so, too.

[She can't breezily say It will - that kind of blithe confidence in herself, in most cases, is beyond her grasp.]

But if it doesn't, and if I ever start talking about how great the Admiral is and how we should all just trust him to make decisions for us, you can kick my ass.